Bed thoughts.

So I took my driving test for the first time today and failed. And by quite a lot. I would say that 90% of it was due to my mentality when I struck the kerb during the start of my test. I was so nervous that i tossed everything I learnt out the (car) window and did much worse than I had practiced for during lessons. 

I prayed so hard to pass it, and actually many things were in my favor. I got the best timing, having the test during the time I usually take my lessons. It wasn't raining and there weren't many cars on the road. Being a perfectionist who can't handle rejections well, it is no surprise today that I didn't take the failure well when I first heard it. Took all the courage I had in my body to not tear in front of the tester. 

But I learnt something from this, which is why I felt the urge to blog about it. I wished that 2016 would be a year of success for me. And it will be. But it is naive to wish that everything I come across will go in my way, because life doesn't work that way. I would say that I've been so sheltered and fortunate for a major part of my life that I can confidently say life always went my way. It wasn't until I was 18 that I realised it didn't. But it was a good wake up call and an enriching experience. During this period of "awakening" I felt myself grow and blossom and learn like I've never done in my life. This thing is but a minor setback, a little thorn amongst the rose bushes of life that I am still living. 

So I change what I want of 2016. Do not let it be a year just of success. Let it be the most enriching year, full of obstacles that I can conquer, full of learning experiences shall I not, and most importantly, full of optimism.